From the day I found out that I was pregnant, I was instantly hit with a double whammy of excitement and paranoia. OMG… I was growing a person! Some tremendous soul in a tiny body with a divine purpose to touch the world chose to come here through me! I knew that I would now be responsible for something much bigger than myself. I was about to bring forth my most precious creation in life and I was scared as hell. Even now, 15 months in, I still struggle to swallow the weight of this responsibility. I think it’s kind of a given that as a first-time parent you get sucked into the “what-the-heck-do-I-do-with-this-thing-now!” panic vortex. I’ve never done drugs but I will assume that the tumultuous first 3 months post-birth (which felt like hell) are like being on a bad acid trip – all wired up, no sleep, can’t eat, stupid anxiety, plus you look like a train wreck.
In hindsight (with my 1 + years of parental wisdom at hand, chuckle), I have found that the panic is really for naught as the adventure unfolds naturally, day-by-day. I had no clue about the depths of unconditional love and the wisdom that could be found in love alone. Just cluing in to Arya’s needs and what stimulates her is such a trip! I feel like I am re-learning life through a new set of lenses just by watching her explore her world. I think that exposure is what makes us who we are, and whatever we are fed as children really lays the foundation for who we become as adults. Ultimately, I want my kid to be more than just sane, I want her to be a kick-ass global citizen! But how? Well, you don’t have to teach a seed how to grow, they just do it, right? However, you must present a balanced set of conditions to stimulate it to take root and grow into a sturdy tree. This means developing the right sense of timing and knowing just the right amount of water and sunlight to give it. As parents, we control our little seed’s environment and that determines everything. This is why I am paying so much attention to the first few years. As a new mom I don’t pretend to have all of the answers, but I feel it forward and every day I learn something new to guide us on our way.
Please enjoy these snippets of my journey with Arya, using love and the world around me to cultivate my little seed. These insights will be documented as a weekly blog at www.theculturedseed.com. Over time this blog seed will grow into a multifaceted online resource tree, designed to guide you as you cultivate your seeds, be they your own children, nieces, nephews, grandkids or just bitty people who you love. The Cultured Seed will flourish as the ultimate educational enrichment resource for the arts, culture, travel, food and fun with an array of experiences that can be had in your neck of the woods. Hopefully you will feel inclined to join in on the fun. Happy Reading.